Getting Back On That Horse

Boy I’m really on the edge here. Really close to falling through the cracks resulting from the rupturing of faults. So many seismic changes this year. I never learn. I never learn. I’ll never learn. Its time to take hold and take heed. Today is the start of new things, no more treading I want out of this. My home, where I rest my head. Must be put back together. Wake up early! Eat right! Be active! Be healthy! You feel better when you’re taking care of yourself, even if lacking anything else inspiring/exciting. And the joy to be had this weekend. I have two weeks left of summer in which to feel it. I’ve felt so little this year. Hopefully I can get into class next paycheck. Hopefully there is room. I want that so badly for myself. Medical bills pilling up. I can’t pay for my life. So much discontent I need to do away with, so little resources and means in the country these days. My youth is withering away, and I’m still young. I thought 2009 would be a good year, my that eve was such fun. It’s near close. I’m thankful. I’m almost a year older. Almost a year closer to death. Almost a year further away from being who I wanted to be today. So much heat in me, so much burning. And it’s fucking useless.

Start today. Make it different.

You saw it for the first time in a long time, printed on that overpass you used to know so well “IT CAN GET BETTER”