I’ve resorted back to the same comfort I even found in middle school.
I used to take walks and listen to my walkman even then as well as listen to it on the school bus. There was an unmatchable comfort in this. The song I remember best doing this with was Talk Show Host by Radiohead when I was younger.
These days have been heavier than I think I realize but I’m taking them with ease. I see what’s suffering which would be my other friendships.
Jon and Fabian have called so much and I never answer, or sometimes I answer only to say I’ll call back then do not do so. I’ve seen Anne and Jenn and recently Meredith. I feel as though my company is less than satisfactory, although I think Anne is a little tried as well so perhaps we’re comfortable. Kaitlyn has been home from Canada for days now and I have yet to see her. I’m seeing her tonight.
I’ve begun taking cigarette breaks at work now, taking a much needed much deserved mental break. Long enough for one song which gives the near comfort of a friend’s arms. I’m going to start attending the gym again, and reading again. I have taken my sights off of Tropic of Cancer for now, instead I’m going to purchase David Cross’s new book “I Drink For a Reason” after work today and begin that.
Today’s song was AA Bondy’s ‘When The Devil’s Loose’ featured below.
I didn’t really count on this blog being an account of my emotions for it’s probably a poor decision to be even more revealing than I am in person however perhaps it’s what I need at the moment. I’ll feature my cigarette songs for others to find comfort in as well. This one in particular will be on Kaitlyn’s mix cd, which is long overdue.
I discussed moving to Philadelphia with Anne next summer. She’s interested. I feel confident in this goal, it still feels right. I informed Megan, Elisha and Rachel of this. They are filled with excitement. I really love those girls.
Why don’t you give yourself a rest
Oh give yourself some room
You can’t get your arms round everybody
You cannot carry the doom
Of the living and the dying
How easily you bruise
Oh dear, you don’t go around when the devil’s loose
I used to take walks and listen to my walkman even then as well as listen to it on the school bus. There was an unmatchable comfort in this. The song I remember best doing this with was Talk Show Host by Radiohead when I was younger.
These days have been heavier than I think I realize but I’m taking them with ease. I see what’s suffering which would be my other friendships.
Jon and Fabian have called so much and I never answer, or sometimes I answer only to say I’ll call back then do not do so. I’ve seen Anne and Jenn and recently Meredith. I feel as though my company is less than satisfactory, although I think Anne is a little tried as well so perhaps we’re comfortable. Kaitlyn has been home from Canada for days now and I have yet to see her. I’m seeing her tonight.
I’ve begun taking cigarette breaks at work now, taking a much needed much deserved mental break. Long enough for one song which gives the near comfort of a friend’s arms. I’m going to start attending the gym again, and reading again. I have taken my sights off of Tropic of Cancer for now, instead I’m going to purchase David Cross’s new book “I Drink For a Reason” after work today and begin that.
Today’s song was AA Bondy’s ‘When The Devil’s Loose’ featured below.
I didn’t really count on this blog being an account of my emotions for it’s probably a poor decision to be even more revealing than I am in person however perhaps it’s what I need at the moment. I’ll feature my cigarette songs for others to find comfort in as well. This one in particular will be on Kaitlyn’s mix cd, which is long overdue.
I discussed moving to Philadelphia with Anne next summer. She’s interested. I feel confident in this goal, it still feels right. I informed Megan, Elisha and Rachel of this. They are filled with excitement. I really love those girls.
Why don’t you give yourself a rest
Oh give yourself some room
You can’t get your arms round everybody
You cannot carry the doom
Of the living and the dying
How easily you bruise
Oh dear, you don’t go around when the devil’s loose
[mp3 When The Devils Loose - AA Bondy]
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